lamentation of the neglected pussy #30days #30days2018 by Cherie Ann Turpin

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I have not fucked since 2012

I’m tired of this shit

I love my vibrator

but goddamn it’s not the same thing as fingers tongue or dick

last woman I was with fucked me against a wall and

made me come like a lion in heat

last man who actually knew how to fuck me fucked me all day

broke my bed

I am a multi-orgasmic woman starved of the basics

I ignored it at the risk of my own well being because

I thought I was better off focusing on work and healing my broken heart

work will always be work

my heart is healed

my poetry is stuck in my head because

I neglected myself 

I forgot how to connect and be that wild sexual woman

I like sex and companionship without being desperate or needing a wedding ring

I think marriage in its current state is canonization of desperation and fear of loneliness

I refused to get caught up but I paid a price that

I still do not regret

but now it’s time to return to my body and erotic impulses

I need to fuck for health reasons

my pussy won’t take a dildo anymore

I need to fuck for spiritual reasons

my magic needs to land someplace concrete

I need to fuck for rhetorical reasons

my writing is lacking concrete edges and passion

we act like sex is something extra, like it’s just for making babies

I didn’t make a baby or get a spouse

we demonize a very human need for touching kissing orgasms

can’t pray away human desire for erotic love and

why would you want to do that?

food or drug or drink won’t fill that ache either

Toni Morrison wrote about this in Sula

she gave me language and imagery to understand what

I experience now as a 51-year-old woman

I have feelings

I am a human being with needs

I enjoy consensual sex

deal with it

my voice is back.

 

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